What will my Life Be If Without Zumba?

I just realised that I have been teaching Zumba for one year now. Well, Zumba of course made me feel better, look better and of course eat better as I get to spend my own money, so generally I can eat what I want.
 
Actually Zumba take the most time out of me, I usually will take a long time to choreograph and memorise the steps as I did not have any experience on it. But still anyone without any background can take up this fitness dance. As William Hung from American idol said "I am not a professional singer." Still, he is so famous today. Sometimes people will tend to think a lot stepping out, this causes delay and procrastination which lead to lacking of courage to take the first step. Well, after I took Zumba license, it has totally change my life.

Today when I think of it, I feel funny! To me, No Zumba means No Money! Haha, cliché answer? Lol! I love music and dance so much, so probably I will be ending up in clubbing culture. Can't imagine that! Well,, I started Zumba in gym, so I would say If no Zumba, I won't be addicted to go to gym everyday. I go to Celebrity Fitness gym and my friends told me that it is a famous place that have many Gays. Hmm...It is so true, out of 10 guys who I know in this place are all gays. Nevertheless, I never have prejudice on LBGT. I would say it's my privilege and honour to get to knowthem. Hmm..sounds fishy! But at least they treasure me and treat me better than real man out there.

I still remember when I was small in primary school, most of the boys dislike to talk or be friend with me because I am fat and ugly. Even if someone is good to me, their purpose will be to know my best friend who is actually one of the prettiest girl in school. This actually caused me to have phobia interacting with male since then.  In secondary school, I was transferred to a Malay school where they love separating genders: different gender cannot sit together, cannot use the same staircase, cannot exercise together, cannot eat together. Eventually, phobia got worst.

Why I joined gym? I want to lost weight.
Why Celebrity Fitness? My best friend signed up.
Expensive, Why signed up? The salesperson is good looking and persuasive. (LOL, now I don't think he is)

Yeap, first impression is very important. Especially when comes to interpersonal communication,  grooming is important so to build a stable primacy effect.

To me, gays are generally nice people (or are those people that I met are good?!) They will take care of me when we go out, they are polite, good looking, they will even cook and bake for me!!! Wow, how I wish they are straight! I really wonder how to bend them back....LOL!

Ever since I know gays, I began to talk to them and I feel very comfortable when with them as I know I will be very safe since they have no interest in girls. But thanks to them, I no longer have phobia talking to a male.

I have a friend who always say " God is fair!"

Quite true also, gays are literally near to perfect! The only thing is they prefer same gender.
As a true friend, I just hope they can find their owe happiness and get a compatible partner. They are just like anyone else, a human who need loves and cares. Lol, actually everyone deserves that!

A Student's Dilemma

     I wonder, should I go class? Every time when I wake up in the morning for 8am class, I will count how many time did I skipped the class. But yes, I hardly skip classes, my attendances are nearly full. This is because I feel guilty if I skip it. On the other hand, there is also a realistic reason which is I must go because I already pay for the tuition fee. So I must not waste money, I must earn the knowledge. Logic! I pay to gain knowledge and the ultimate goal is to obtain the certificate.

     Many students don't really care because they can self-study at home, but I can't since I don't have the determination and discipline. Most of my friends thought I'm a hardworking and smart student because my face say so. LOL! What do you mean by " see your face also know your result sure very good one." Haha, are you saying I'm a nerd? But I don't wear spectacle.

     That's right! Everyone always has a perception. They always have pre-judgemental without understanding or seek for clarification before they judge. Even my Academic advisor also said, by looking at us, she knew that we are good students. Well, we are good students indeed, we are obedient and respectful. We do our homework, we care for the grades because we care our face.

     The main obstacles now is our own. Own self , self-centred are the main enemy. I want to save face, I feel guilty if skip class, I pay for the tuition fee that is why I go to class to acquire knowledge, I did not wear specs so I'm not nerd, I work hard and obedient because I want to achieve good grades. So many "I"........I once heard the story, why Christian symbol is a "I" symbol with a horizontal line in middle? That is because, Jesus want his followers not to be self-centred, therefore, he cross the " I" and it became "+" sign now.

     Only if I was not that self-centred and emphasized so much on face-saving, not being so stubborn, I will probably now graduated in UM at this age. Human shall never regret on losing things that they aren't supposed to have, so I'm still considered lucky that I'm here to study at UTAR after two years of working life. At least I can still come back to study, we never know how much others' want to go back to study life but they can't as they have too many dilemma in life.